Well this is it! I am super excited! It has been quite the adventure
here in Belgium and The Netherlands. I have learned so much, and
changed so much that I could not sum it all up here in one email.
However, I want to share the biggest lesson I have learned here on my
mission. I learned why I was such a mediocre high-school football
player. I have learned throughout my mission that one thing that I
really dislike is struggle, if I struggle I always try to change the
subject to a strength of mine or just stop what was hard and do
something else. I saw myself do it time and time again, It is
something that I still do from time to time. A couple of weeks ago Kent
Remington sent in an email a quote that I feel puts it all together
for me and changed my whole perspective on struggle. “Struggle is not
an option, it’s a biological requirement.” I thought I could become
great without the struggle, that I could just skip the growth period
and be who I wanted to be. But it doesn’t work like that, everyone has
to struggle to become great. My whole mission I saw these missionaries
that just appeared not to have struggles or problems, but that was not
the truth at all. These missionaries had just learned something I had
not, overcoming trials and hard times are really just the good times!
They just smiled and enjoyed the fact that it was hard. I think that I
am now getting to that point, because when it’s easy it never feels
fulfilling. I think that a key part of needing struggles in our lives
is that we all can recognize the necessity of a saviour in our lives.
I have seen that the struggles are what make me happy, give me
purpose, and make me grow. But what they have done the most is let me
know that I need Christ, without Him I would not have made it through.
I’m not trying to say that I just give all my problems to him and he
takes them from me, but rather he helps me recognize what improvement
I need to make. Then how to make these changes, by putting people
in my life to teach me lessons, putting me in situations where I am
uncertain how I should handle myself, and other things. He is aware
of what we need to do in life to be happy, He sees things in a
perspective that we cannot, and eternal perspective. I think that the
most fantastic part about all of this is that all we need to do is ask
him for help. I am not going to say I have heard a voice, or seen
any angels, that just hasn’t happened to me. But what I will say is
that I have felt his presence, I have seen His hand in my life. I have
experienced help in moments when I thought I could not go any further,
but somehow I forgot my doubts and was able to continue. I want to
thank you mom, I really could not have made it through without your
support. You have really been there for me my whole life, I don’t know
how I could ever make it up to you for putting up with my crap. But
thank you, I love you!
I have come to a knowledge that we are given problems so that we can
grow and become the people we are meant to be. I am thankful for all the
support from everyone, I hope that throughout this time I became more
of the person I am supposed to be! I have learned so much, and become
so grateful for all those I know and have met in this time. I will
miss it here a lot, but look forward to seeing everyone! I know that
Christ is my saviour, I know that He lives and wants to support us all
if we let him.
The statement we have as a mission is something I hope I will use for
my whole life to help me.
Vrees Niet, Gewoon Doen!
“Fear not, Just do”
Its doesn’t fully translate but it has helped me to forget myself and
do what the Lord would have me do!